The court decree is in the hands of our facilitator, which means we're OFFICIAL!!! The head of the department of vital statistics is back to work; however the office has no internet, so no birth certificate for Timothy yet. We are praying that it happens tomorrow. Our US Embassy appointments are made for next Thursday (18th) and Friday (19th) and I emailed Eldon at Golden Rule travel about his ticket for the 20th. I have faith that we’ll be on that flight.
The devil has been working overtime on me and my family over the course of the last few days, and I almost let him win. He almost beat me down, and I have shed many tears over the course of the last 24 hours.
When I got in the car this morning, to go to the baby house, the first thing I heard was “God is in control”, not just the song, but that specific line was the first thing I heard. It was all I could do not to burst into tears right then. I didn’t want to scare my poor driver though. LOL He is a sweet man and speaks broken English. I didn’t think I could explain it well enough so I held it in.
I did take a moment before heading in to get Timothy though to sit on the playground and talk to God.
Someone took it upon themselves to turn me(well, my daycare) in to the Department of Human Services yesterday. They reported that I have been running my daycare with non-registered helpers. This is not true, and will be cleared up when I get home, but in the mean time, they closed my daycare.
So, once again, my families are sent scrambling. I’m sure that I’ll lose most of them over this whole mess. I had things worked out before we left. Things happened beyond my control once I was gone which has been a horrible burden on my daycare families, and my own.
I am 6,500 miles away. I have cried so much that I don't know where the tears are even coming from anymore, they should have all dried up. My daycare families have encouraged us, and helped us in our journey to get to this point, and I feel like I have let them down. I feel helpless and hopeless.
I’m not posting this to discourage anyone from following God’s call to adopt. I’m writing this to ask for prayer, yet again. Pray for my family, and my daycare families. And for God’s continuing provision for all of us.
To Christy, and Glenda, I haven’t been able to get to FB(it automatically posts there when I add a new post to my blog, which I can do) but I got your messages in email. Hopefully by now you have gotten the answers to the questions that you asked. If not, call John and he’ll do what he can. I will be home as planned, and things will be back to “normal” as soon as I am!
Through all of the upheaval yesterday, John did his best to comfort me from home. One line of one of his emails is helping me to get through all of this… He wrote” God sent us, we obey, He rewards. “
I am clinging to that.
Dearest Mel - Rob and I are both praying for your situation. I knew it was bad but didn't realize how bad!! I am so thankful that you have CAthy and Tully there to hold you up during this frightful time. Praying and praying some more. Your husband is right - God called you and He is not going to let you fall. Keep your eyes fixed on the AUTHOR AND FINISHER of your faith!! He is the beginning and the end and He is not shocked, surprised or dismayed. Kiss that baby boy and remind yourself that in two weeks you will be sitting down at a Thanksgiving feast that includes a little boy who is going to be the star of your festival!!
ReplyDeleteMel, We are praying, too. I can't think of anything else to do to help. I can't even think of anything profound or particularly helpful to say. I'm just really sorry you're going through such a hard time. I'm just happy you have faith to get you through. I will pray people around you will open their shriveled little hearts. I am grateful your heart is big enough to deal with anything they throw at you.
ReplyDeleteDEAR MEL, WE PRAYING TO GOD, WE ARE SURE GOD HAVE A BETTER FUTURE FOR YOU AND YOUR BEAUTIFUL FAMILY.
ReplyDeleteIN JESUS EVERYTHING IS POSIBLE. REMEMBER WANTING IS THE POWER.
LOVE YOUR SISTER IN LAW.
ELSIE
ELSIE
Dang it, I'm trying to feel sorry for myself and here you go messing it up for me :) At least you are there with Timothy, I am struggling with how to make enough money to get to Paisley... Who the heck would call "the law" on you, anyway? That's just plain crazy. I would say we'll both look back on this and laugh but somehow I think that's not true. I wish I could make you smile, heck I wish I could make myself smile... love ya though, even when things just plain stink!
ReplyDeleteLove wins,
Renee
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That's terrible!! So sorry that happened. Remember that God is in control. (That's a big one for me!) At the end of your trip, you will have a new family member...Timothy. It will be so worth all of the hurdles. Hope things start to turn around for you.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on it being official! Take heart, be of good cheer, and FINISH STRONG!
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ReplyDeleteI am Cathy's friend from Ky, and am so sorry about all these last-minute hurdles which have cropped up. Just doesn't seem right or fair or just or any of those things! Please know that you are in my prayers. Timothy is darling, and I am so glad that he (and you!) will soon be home.
Blessings,
Susan in Ky
Bless your heart Mel! We are praying for you! Satan is attacking because we are doing what we are supposed to be doing! Sending lots of love and prayers your way!
ReplyDeleteAwww girlie girl...I feel your pain and your struggles. And boy do I love John's words to you! How fitting, How True!!! I know you don't need me telling you this because you already know but you are where you are suppose to be at this very minute! Just think in just over a week you are HOME!!! We will continue to pray that everything here on out will be smoooth and you can enjoy your last week in EE!!! And WOW, why someone would ever call to shut your daycare down are just plain idiots and selfish! You are such a wonderful person, wife, excellent mother and exceptional daycare provider. I have a feeling those that cherish you to take care of their children will indeed hang in there with you!! Your almost home now! YAY! And always remember God will not let you go through anything he doesn't think you can handle...you can handle this! I believe in you...we all believe in you! Hang in there...things WILL get back to normal soon! Just look into Timothy's eyes and there is your answer :) Mean old devil can't take you down! You are stronger than that. And remember what you said in one of your blogs...don't tell God how big your mountain is...YOU tell the mountain how big your GOD IS! :)
ReplyDeleteOh Mel it just makes me crazy that other people think they need to butt in and report you like that. I'm sure you did everything by the book and if your parents are fine with it then thats fine I mean as long as the kids are safe and well cared for and I'm sure they are, oh man I could go on and on but I will not. what I will say is don't worry about it all, you will be home soon I'm sure the daycare parents understand and will be back. try not to think about it and just get what you need to get done to get home with that boy.The Lord is with you with every step you take just hold his hand and it will all be ok.
ReplyDeleteMel, I am so sorry for all of this extra drama that you, your family, and your daycare families have had to go through. I can't begin to imagine what it must be like, to have made all of your arrangements and then to have them all fly out the window. This is a theme I am hearing more frequently, someone makes a comment and then leaves you hanging out to dry. I remember when you gave your word on something it was as good as done (and no one would ever consider going back on their word).
ReplyDeleteI am just excited that you are OFFICIAL! It must have been a great feeling to make arrangements for your return home. You are yet another day closer to bringing that handsome young man home with you.
April
Thinking of you guys all the time... come home soon!!!
ReplyDeleteMel, I am so sorry you are going thru this!!! I can only imagine how hard this is for your family! I am praying for you and Timothy and your family at home. So sorry that this happened to you and it is truly Satan. He is trying to attack you one last time, he is desperate to stop this awesome thing you are doing following God's call to save an orphan!!! It seemed like the last week we were there was the hardest and longest! Praying that darn birth certificate is done right now!! so you can get his passport and get out of there!!!! We flew home the 20th as well (of Oct) so I am faithful as well that you will make your flight!!! Thinking of you often!!!!
ReplyDeleteMel, I am so so sorry that this has happened! But, yours and your husband's outlook on all of it is so encouraging. Yes, God is in Control :) Hoping and praying that everything is able to be worked out when you and Timothy get home.
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