Seriously??

It amazes me how FAST a day can go from being so-so to just downright sucky!   

The day started out pretty typical, although I was running on about 3 hours of sleep because a certain little boy, who shall remain nameless, didn’t want to go back to sleep at 2 am when he got up to go potty… finally at 5:30 he did.  Yaaaawn!

Got breakfast, got the kids off to school, had to run to the store for some milk (we really need a cow!), etc. 

I had the opportunity to stand up for a cause this afternoon, through my online contacts and communities, which was really cool.  We accomplished our goal too, which made it even cooler. 

Then the day took a turn… neither of my own little ones would take a nap so they have been cranky and picking at each other, and squealing, and screaming all evening.  Neither of them would eat supper, so now we have cranky, hungry kids (ok, they got to have PB sandwiches (how long can a child sustain life on PB sandwiches anyway?) when they wouldn’t eat what I fixed which really wasn’t bad (cheesy potatoes & ham)). 

Then I get “the call”.  The school was calling.  This is never a good thing.  Joe was throwing a fit (rightfully so) because someone had stolen his iPod.  I mean, seriously??   Joe has Asperger’s Syndrome.  We have to approach his behavior with caution because just about anything can cause his Dr. Jekyl/Mr Hyde transformation.  He has a behavior program at school and is able to earn privileges.  Enter the iPod.  Most of the kids at school are very tolerant of Joe’s differences.  WHY would someone do this?  The worse part of it is that it was stolen from the Special Ed classroom.   The principal is going to do what he can to get to the bottom of it, but of course, that might not help anything.  Joe is very upset(again, rightfully so), and this is NOT going to be an easy thing for him to get over.  Ugh…

I wish I could just get him a new one.  Honestly though, we are struggling to pay our bills.  Losing so many of my daycare kids while I was in Ukraine has us really in a bad place.   Some of them left owing for the last week that their kids were here so the bills for that week didn't even get paid.   The other bills are barely getting paid, nevermind that it’s Christmas next week and there won’t be anything under the tree for John or I (and we both know it so it won’t be a letdown), and the older two had to hear the “we just don’t have the money this year” speech.   

I know that some reading this are thinking “Well, you brought this on yourself”.  Yep, I guess I did.  I had faith that the arrangements that I made would be enough.  I went to Ukraine and I brought home a little boy who would have spent the rest of his short life in an institution but instead he is here, fighting with his little sister over a toy computer and laughing at her for yelling about it.   I followed a calling that came from God, and in faith jumped in with both feet. 

I know that God will provide.  He hasn’t let us down yet.  *I* just need to have that faith again.  Days like this make it very hard though. 

Thank you, my friends, for your prayers.  Without them I would not make it most days.