Today has been a hard day. It’s been a day of decisions. A day that I never in a million years thought would come in this way. The decisions I’m making really don’t have much to do with anyone else other than myself, but they are hard none the less. They are decisions that affect my family. Decisions that affect my children. Decisions that make me very sad, and a little angry. Decisions that will not affect our day to day lives, our new “normal”.
Our new “normal” is so much more difficult than our old “normal”. Our new normal is one of not having any extras, no eating out, not even the occasional McDonalds. No impulse purchases. No “allowance” for the kids. Worrying every day how the bills would be paid this month, this week. If we would have enough money for groceries and household necessities, co-pays and medications, gas for the van/truck. Our new normal sucks to be honest. I hate having to tell my kids “no” when they ask for something extra like a candy at the checkout or a little “toy” that would have never been a big deal before. I hate feeling like any minute something might be disconnected or taken away(well, not so much taken away since we don’t really have anything that we owe on other than our vehicles). I just hate this.
Later…
Wow… I almost deleted the stuff I wrote earlier, but decided not to just because I don’t want to seem like things are all sunshine and roses all of the time.
Today we went to Walmart and ordered Timothy’s glasses (Thank you God(and West Liberty Foods) for vision insurance!!). They are adorable! I hope he leaves them on though. The doctor said that once he realizes how good he can see with them on, he’ll keep them on. I sure hope he’s right! LOL I forgot my camera, so you’ll have to wait for pics till they are actually here. Just take my word for it… A D O R A B L E! hehe
I also found out this afternoon that a friend has breast cancer. This is a woman who has been through SO much in the time that I have known her. God will bring her through this too, she is strong, and He is good.
Please pray for us. I know that God has a plan. I know that He is in control of everything and I know that He will carry us through this. It is just hard, so hard. Pray for my friend. For peace, and healing. Pray for her doctors, for guidance and knowledge as they help her get through this difficult place. Thank you all so much for your prayers, and your support, without my friends, I don’t know how I’d make it some days.
Praying Mel!!!
ReplyDeleteWhen you feel like all is lost, like what else can go wrong, know that you are surrounded by prayers of those that love you and think the world of you. God never closes a door without opening an emergency exit, sometimes it's just hard to see. We have been there, we know. Prayers, my friend, and lots of love sent your way.
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Renee
Mel, Have followed you for some time now but never commented until now. I know exactly how you are feeling. I have been there. We had 3 kids and I was pregnant with #4 due in 4 months. It was Christmas Eve and my hiusband was laid off. No money,savings or insurance anymore. He got a job quickly but at half the pay and we lost almost everything we had. We pulled in our belt and it was HARD but over several months we could see a glimmer of light. God could have pulled us through but I think he wanted us to see what we could do before he steppped in. Trusting in God and following his lead we made it. Please keep on doing the best you can and never forget God is right there beside you. Each day try to find one thing that was positive and watch as they add up. I will keep reading and praying for you. Hope this makes sense to you. YOU WILL MAKE IT!
ReplyDeletePraying for you all! God has a plan. I just wish I knew what it was! Love you!
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