Thursday again...

Thursdays are exciting days on RR. Thursday is the day that prospective families have their dossiers submitted. It’s also the day that many who are waiting on an appointment date get the email that says when they need to be there. Thursday has always been my favorite day of the week. While I am soooooo happy for those who are getting good news, I’m frustrated because it’s not us yet.

Our dossier seems to be stuck again, and I’m not getting any answers to the inquiries that I’ve emailed. If there is one part of this journey that I can hate, it’s the hurry up and get this or that done, and then wait. I totally understand that we are not the only family that needs attention, but that doesn’t make it any easier. Our stateside helper used to be really quick to answer emails but I haven’t heard anything from him this time(I don't know if it's because he is busy with his own life(the nerve! hehe), not getting my emails, or what). Waaah!!!

I am just having a bad day, I know. The 23rd of this month marks a year since my Dad passed away. I've been feeling really sad lately about it all. I know my Mom is having a tough time. It's so hard to see her like this, but there's nothing I can really do to help. She has to grieve and deal with it on her own. I think we're going to try to go to the cemetary and finally bury his ashes on the 23rd, or there about. Sigh...

In the midst of being happy/sad about everyone's good news today, there was a bright spot. I heard from my friend again today. The one who is with her children from Timothy’s orphanage. She had this to say today. “I saw Timothy today. He is well. He was playing outside. He loves to come and say hello. He had a broken toy cell phone that he loved. If you can bring one. I bought one for E and I and they LOVE IT. The one I got them makes noise. I just don't leave it with them when we leave or it would get lost. Your son is so curious...I honestly can't tell he has down syndrome. He is so smart and loves to watch as if he is soaking it in like a sponge. “ I’ll definitely be finding him a phone to take with us. Another thing that she said in her message today is that they will get us some photos on Monday. YAY!!

Of course, I had been doing a good job all morning of not crying but as soon as I read her email, I couldn't keep it in anymore. John probably thought I was nuts!

God, I know you're up there, I know you are guiding all that happens in our journey. Please help me through this frustration. Lend me some peace to help me wait until it is our turn. Hold on to our little guy and keep him safe until we can be there with him and bring him home. Thank you for your blessings for our family, and for our friends who are moving closer and closer to bringing home their precious little ones. We love you. Amen.