Hmmm...

How cool it must be to have a selective memory.  Not to remember when you have hurt someone.  Not to think twice when you say something ugly.  Not to have a conscience that bothers you when you build yourself up and brag about all of the good things you do, knowing that some of those good things were actually done by someone else.    Not to remember the things that you have done in the past to those who loved you who forgave you no questions asked because they love you and that’s what you are supposed to do. 

I have never been that type of person intentionally.  I have hurt people, I have made stupid decisions, I’ve even made a mistake or two.  I know, I know, it’s hard to believe… hehe   The difference though is that I can’t let things go on very long before I am trying to make it right.  My conscience gets to me… I have always been the “peacemaker”.  

It’s hard for people who don’t have an active relationship with God to understand those who do have such a relationship.   They believe in God, they might even pray when things get tough, but that is about the extent of it.   They also roll their eyes, or stop listening when someone is trying to tell them about the blessings that they have received or the prayers that He has answered.   Is life as a believer all sunshine and rainbows?  No way.   But that is what builds our faith, and our belief, and our strength. 

I’m not even really sure why I am writing all of this.  I guess someone needs to hear it.  Maybe someone reading will think that I’m talking about them.  Maybe it will lead them to reevaluate something happening in their own life.  I don’t know.

What I do know is that God loves me.  He always has.  *I* am the one the slipped away.   I have done things during that time that I am not proud of.   I have been forgiven by people and more importantly, by God.   It is not for anyone to judge me, or the things that I do whether they are good or bad, just as it is not for me to judge others.  Someday I will stand before Him and have to answer for the things that I’ve done.  So will those other people.  They will have to answer to Him for the people they hurt, for the grudges they hold, and for the lives that they changed in the process. 

“For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.”   Matthew 7:2