I had a very short night last night, as in the amount of sleep I actually got. It took forever for me to actually fall asleep, it was around midnight. At 1:22am the phone rang. Of course, you know that when the phone rings at that time, the news can’t be good. It was my Aunt. My Grandmother had passed away. It was very peaceful, she died in her sleep. She has been in fragile health for the last couple of years. She has been telling us lately that she was “ready to go Home”. My Aunt Cheryl called me to go tell my Mom. She didn’t want to tell her on the phone, and since Mom lives alone, it was better that someone was with her when she found out. Mom usually stays up pretty late, so I figured she’d be up. No such luck! I used my key and let myself in as quiet as I could so I wouldn’t scare her if she heard me. Went into the living room and turned on a light and called out to her. She didn’t hear me, so I went into her room and as gently as I could, I woke her up. All of that was harder than actually telling her that her Mother had passed away.
I’m sure that it will set in as the week progresses and we go through the visitation and funeral but I don’t really have a sense of “loss” yet. More a sense of relief. Grandma’s health was bad for the last few years. She had times of clarity, and times of confusion. Of course, she wasn’t always like that, just recently. She will be missed. It’s only been 6 ½ months since my Dad died, so this is coming on the heels of loss already. Ugh…
Didn't have a chance to do anything towards our fundraising today. I will be working hard on making things to sell tomorrow though so they'll be ready for me to sell at my crop and our other sales.
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